Begin Reflection Log: 31st minute of the 22nd hour of the 3rd day of the 4th month of the 19th year of the 1st century of the 3rd millennia of the Common Era.

"I feel that I am less productive on a day-to-day basis while in St. Louis.  I feel my own need for outward accountability starting to manifest more seriously.  I hope that God takes this moment to act because I will not resist change much longer.  I could feel myself returning to my beloved self as I returned to Oklahoma over Spring Break--it is tough to love and accept yourself when your better self is so close by.  Here is my attempt at a poem that expresses community's wins:

        fear of rough water
brine and wave have damage shown
     storm gives sights anew


Let it be known that this poem of my month is for outward digestion by my lovely audience as well as for inward digestion for my spiritual health."

End Reflection Log: 14th minute of the 23rd hour of the 3rd day of the 4th month of the 19th year of the 1st century of the 3rd millennia of the Common Era.

I may have gotten a little over ambitious when it came to Lent this year. I figure that since this is a year devoted to faith development, I should do all of the things I have considering giving up in the past. So I gave up makeup. And Netflix. And meat. And social media.

I had an idea that since I would have so much free time on my hands, I would magically fall into doing things I was aspiring to: reading more, praying more, exercising more. However, I began to  “cheat” with these things. (The Bachelor is on ABC.com and not Netflix right?! #teambecca) ​

That being said, I did convince myself to pray more and read more scripture than I usually do. I found to my surprise that the more I did it, the more I had a craving for it. But still, it was often easy to convince myself not to. It reminds me of exercise- the 15 minutes before while you are convincing yourself to do it are the worst.
It is a friendly reminder to push through the excuses, fear, and, frankly, laziness that often inhibits my prayer life.